Thursday, June 20, 2013

Weight Loss Journey Day 1

Happy Thursday!  Have you ever thought to yourself where the heck did all this weight come from? I've never had an issue with weight why now? I've been asking myself this for awhile now.  Up until about 4 1/2 years ago I never had an issue with weight.  I was wearing size 4 or smaller (30 waist in men's work clothes)  and actually could not put on weight.  I didn't worry about what I ate and didn't have to do any exercise. Life was awesome! lol  I of course was 34 at the time too.  I am now 38 almost 39, 20 lbs heavier with not a muffin top but a spare tire. I'm also that many years post divorce, a developmentally disabled daughter who was in her important years in school, fibromyalgia diagnosed with medication, and big eater since Steve is a guy who loves food, working full-time with irregular eating times so fast food was my friend. When I sit down I can feel the rolls and it makes it uncomfortable to sit.  I have gone up to size 12 or 14 in women's pants and 34 waist in men's (my work clothes size).  I don't like the way I look even though Steve tells me he likes a woman with meat on her bones :-/ uggghhhh What happened?????? I made excuses, that is what happened.  I've decided that today I'm starting a new chapter.  I now have an 18 year old and 14 year old and it is time for me to take care of me.  I'm going to make changes for me!!!! 

So, what does this mean?  It means that once a week I will be posting my progress good or bad.  I'm not using a scale because I will get discouraged if I don't see a change. Plus, I don't even own a scale.  I also do not own a full length mirror.  I will use my clothes as a guide.  This will be my personal diary.  I know I will fall off the band wagon I'm sure, but I'm going to try my hardest to get right back on.

Let's get started shall we...

I can't believe I'm going to show you pictures, but it will get me motivated now that I know you will all see what I truly look like.

This picture was May 27th my daughter's graduation...  I know it doesn't look like I need to lose weight, but as I've been researching I found that my BMI is 29 which is obese for a 5'5" 148# woman with a small frame. :-(  I don't feel good at this weight either.


Now these are today... please ignore the dirty mirror lololol.  see I'm even to lazy to clean that!!!!  I have been so lazy for a long time.  I blamed my fibromyalgia by saying I hurt to much or I was tired, but I will no longer do that.  I got myself to this point. 

I am a good camouflage artist... big baggie shirts....


Stretchy pants that hold the spare tire in...

 

The spare tire... ugghhh yuck!!!!!


Excuse me ma'am are you pregnant?!?!?!?  check out the tire....

 

This now holds me accountable since I've put it out all over the web. lol.  I conquered the biting my nail thing and hope I can do the same on this.  I have walked about 30 minutes the last two nights.  I will need to build that over time as my hips have become sore from the walking.  They are already tender from the fibro, but it will not hold me back.  I am researching better eating choices like yummy smoothies for breakfast, fruits and veggies (which I love) for snacks and nutritious meals other than processed foods.  I'm going to try and cut out white flour and some dairy.  I've been getting stomach problems recently and not sure if it's related.

I found an application on my phone to help keep track of my calories and started that today.  It says I need to keep my calories around 1400 calories a day to lose 1-2 lbs a week.  I'm not off to a very good start as Steve ordered a potato pizza last night for dinner and there was left-overs so I just HAD to eat them. :-(  lol  I will go grocery shopping tonight for the things I need to get started.  So, as I embark on this journey wish me good luck. LOL  I know I will need it.
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13 comments:

Dana Francis said...

Good for you, Mary!! Taking care of ourselves is always at the bottom of the list. I am rooting for you to accomplish what you desire.

Penny said...

Oh Mary! You sound just like me.... always a skinny-minny in my younger days... went to Weight Watchers to get on a program to GAIN weight!! But the years have taken a toll and I am now a bit over-weight. So NOT easy for me to stay focused and lose.... I wish you the best of luck -- you sound very determined and I know you will do well! I, too, am rooting for you!!
Penny

Trudy Lawson-Kelly said...

Congratulations Mary!

annie said...

Go Mary!! Whoot! Whoot! Whoot!
Knowing you can do this, good for you!

Primitive Stars said...

You go girl, congrats Mary, Francine.

Tina said...

Congrats to your girl on her graduation. This is an exciting time. And Blessings on your health efforts. The battle of the bulge is a constant one for me. I'm up, I'm down....I'm at it again. I joined a gym recently and I'm enjoying it. Keep us posted and we'll keep eachother encouraged.
Take care, T

Wendy @ Ravenwood Whimzies said...

Hey, are you sure that isn't ME in the pictures! Looks like we are just about the same (5'6' and the same weight as you) - I didn't have problems until about 2 1/2 years ago...now muffin top mama is here and it IS uncomfortable sitting..nothing fits from last year. I'll be plugging for you Mary and hopefully get some inspiration to lose a few pounds myself!
PS I love hummus! It full of protein.

Lady Locust said...

A couple of things - you should put a smiley picture of yourself as a profile picture - it looks like such a different you. Also good luck with the weight loss. Mr. LB is a very health knowledgeable fella and told me something that has stuck with me. Your body recognizes 3 things: sugars, fats, and proteins. Proteins take the most energy to metabolize, then fats, and sugars take nearly no energy. All those yummy pastas I love - yup sugar darnit. Keep well and enjoy walking in the spring. Isn't it just beautiful?
Smiles,
JoeyLea
http://thelocustblossom.blogspot.com/

Primlish ♥ said...

I totally hear you...I downloaded an app on my phone and live by it. It works. It was hard in the beginning but after the first couple weeks, it got easier. I've heard it takes 21 days to form a habit. I believe it. I've lost 34 lbs with that app and feel so much better. Good luck to you!
Also, I went and got a scale that shows ounces because I wasn't seeing results at first and would get mad cuz I was "starving" myself...in my opinion ;)
Seeing ounces gone helped me out.

Jannie said...

I have the same issue, only I'm much older. About 5 years ago, lost 47 lbs and have gained 15-16 back, depending on the day. I'm with ya. Researching blogs like "Our Lady of Weight Loss"; "Former Fat Girl", etc. Just keep filling your mind with positive stuff. You are not obese. I don't know what site you checked for BMI, but you are not obese. Look around for more info on that. Good luck!

Samplings from Spring Creek said...

Good Luck I feel your pain! Need to loose30 lbs. Easy to put on, hard as heck to take off!

ohiofarmgirl said...

What a difficult post to put up!!
If I am honest, when my parents both pasted away about 18 months ago, I gained #30...I think the depression and the utter loss was almost too much for me. To lose them, well, there are no words. I have now joined WW and I am down...I have 13 more to lose to be back to normal. I will get there even with a broken heart! Dianntha

Prairie Primitives Folk Art said...

Good luck!! I lost about 30 pounds last year when I was working, but when that gig ended, the fridge became my primary relationship once again. I'm looking forward to getting back to work REAL soon and taking off what I've put back on ... and hopefully more!