Happy Thursday! Have you ever thought to yourself where the heck did all this weight come from? I've never had an issue with weight why now? I've been asking myself this for awhile now. Up until about 4 1/2 years ago I never had an issue with weight. I was wearing size 4 or smaller (30 waist in men's work clothes) and actually could not put on weight. I didn't worry about what I ate and didn't have to do any exercise. Life was awesome! lol I of course was 34 at the time too. I am now 38 almost 39, 20 lbs heavier with not a muffin top but a spare tire. I'm also that many years post divorce, a developmentally disabled daughter who was in her important years in school, fibromyalgia diagnosed with medication, and big eater since Steve is a guy who loves food, working full-time with irregular eating times so fast food was my friend. When I sit down I can feel the rolls and it makes it uncomfortable to sit. I have gone up to size 12 or 14 in women's pants and 34 waist in men's (my work clothes size). I don't like the way I look even though Steve tells me he likes a woman with meat on her bones :-/ uggghhhh What happened?????? I made excuses, that is what happened. I've decided that today I'm starting a new chapter. I now have an 18 year old and 14 year old and it is time for me to take care of me. I'm going to make changes for me!!!!
So, what does this mean? It means that once a week I will be posting my progress good or bad. I'm not using a scale because I will get discouraged if I don't see a change. Plus, I don't even own a scale. I also do not own a full length mirror. I will use my clothes as a guide. This will be my personal diary. I know I will fall off the band wagon I'm sure, but I'm going to try my hardest to get right back on.
Let's get started shall we...
I can't believe I'm going to show you pictures, but it will get me motivated now that I know you will all see what I truly look like.
This picture was May 27th my daughter's graduation... I know it doesn't look like I need to lose weight, but as I've been researching I found that my BMI is 29 which is obese for a 5'5" 148# woman with a small frame. :-( I don't feel good at this weight either.
Now these are today... please ignore the dirty mirror lololol. see I'm even to lazy to clean that!!!! I have been so lazy for a long time. I blamed my fibromyalgia by saying I hurt to much or I was tired, but I will no longer do that. I got myself to this point.
I am a good camouflage artist... big baggie shirts....
Stretchy pants that hold the spare tire in...
The spare tire... ugghhh yuck!!!!!
Excuse me ma'am are you pregnant?!?!?!? check out the tire....
This now holds me accountable since I've put it out all over the web. lol. I conquered the biting my nail thing and hope I can do the same on this. I have walked about 30 minutes the last two nights. I will need to build that over time as my hips have become sore from the walking. They are already tender from the fibro, but it will not hold me back. I am researching better eating choices like yummy smoothies for breakfast, fruits and veggies (which I love) for snacks and nutritious meals other than processed foods. I'm going to try and cut out white flour and some dairy. I've been getting stomach problems recently and not sure if it's related.
I found an application on my phone to help keep track of my calories and started that today. It says I need to keep my calories around 1400 calories a day to lose 1-2 lbs a week. I'm not off to a very good start as Steve ordered a potato pizza last night for dinner and there was left-overs so I just HAD to eat them. :-( lol I will go grocery shopping tonight for the things I need to get started. So, as I embark on this journey wish me good luck. LOL I know I will need it.